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Chapter Three begins…

Daniel heated soup and toasted baby Swiss cheese sandwiches while Lindsay returned calls from the phone extension, which now reached the narrow enamel table in the kitchen.  She hung up with Sam’s sister just as Haidee called her back.

“Remember– “ she tried to calm Haidee before they hung up at nine o’clock, “remember bad news travels faster than good.”

“Unless,” Haidee said, “someone disappears and no one realizes.”

“Too much television drama?” Lindsay surmised.

“Crime scenes may be my scene soon.”

“So you have to think this way,” Lindsay said.  “Give silver hair to your mother who tries to never think the worst,” to which Haidee replied that the worst had already happened to her and they were all right, so that Lindsay thought, just that fast the child had forgotten about her dad.  Or she didn’t believe Sam would die.

“Good night, Haidee love, and remember to call your dad before eleven.  He’s hopefully leaving the hospital by then.”

“Short on clean dishes,” Daniel said, placing a sandwich on a paper towel in front of her, then a mug of tomato soup.  “Haidee doing okay?”

“I’m so proud of her.”

“She’ll do better now that she’s faced the merciless details of life the hard way.”

Lindsay laughed.  “Yes, yes, the hard way.”

He sat down and with his silvery-blue gaze regarded her face, then her hair.  “You don’t look too awful gray for weathering those episodes.”

“Not too.  But my heart took the beating for all the rest of me.”

“I know.”

“I’m not sure how I’m going to do it, but I want to open The Vintage Gate, LLC.”

“The Vintage Gate, sounds inviting. You really going limited liability company?”

“Umhmm, to protect myself from business problems.  I want this.  But Sam needs my time now.  And I don’t know how to coordinate all the problems of a new business with the dire necessities of a dying man.”

“One moment at a time.”

“One moment at a time,” she echoed, and Daniel sat there just smiling at her until she smiled back.

“You can do it,” he said, and she nodded, feeling she really could.  “Lindsay, you know catastrophes have a way of taking care of themselves, hey, you know that.”  She wanted to agree, but she was thinking she really didn’t know.

After their meal, she layered the dishes in the dishwasher.  There were no new additions since the meal last night.  She had given away too many sets in her need to simplify.  A detriment when she needed extra plates and bowls on days like this.  White ironstone preferred.

“You ready for bed?” Daniel asked with his hand poised over the light switch.

Shocked at the question, knowing better all the same, Lindsay nodded and avoided looking at him.

She simply said, “Good night.”  Her back felt stiff because her willful body wanted to go the other way as she passed through the shortest hall in the world to the living room.  Three steps seemed like thirty.

“See you in the morning,” he called from the back of the kitchen.  He had to turn past the refrigerator in the cubbyhole, and then she heard him climbing the steep, narrow carpeted stairs.

They made it to separate bedrooms, she thought gratefully.  So far so good.  No no, never use Gooee’s expression.

Lindsay heard the weight of his steps on the thick-carpeted floor above the living room.  He entered the large office-slash-library-slash-guest room where, along the windows, she had dressed a full-size wrought iron antique bed with a feather top mattress.  She imagined him on the white goose down comforter removing his shoes, sliding around a little bit, deciding it was all too puffy to suit him.

She went in her room and closed the door, raising the layers of sheers to cascade over the glass panes to the living room.

Itty toddled toward Lindsay, raised her tail, scooted her front feet backward, compacted herself into a square shape and gave a sharp little stomp before she ran beneath her skirt, her tail tickling bare shins.

“There you are,” she cooed, snuggling the petite round skunk.  “My Itty bitty pretty one, smelling sweet as a powder puff.  My soft sweetheart.”

Fern came skidding around the bed.  She nearly tipped onto her nose as she screeched to a halt and wheeled around, acting like she would spray.

“Fluffy Fern, I’m going to pinch your butt.”  She snuggled Itty and tousled Fern after tucking her foot into a thick slipper for something besides toes to grab.  Run away.  Stomp.  Skid back, stomp.  Give a cheerleader twist.  Wheel and pretend to spray.  Fern, named for her proud tail, was three years old and not tired of playing.  “I’m going to pinch you, I’ll pinch you,” Lindsay teased.

“Hey, Lindsay…” Daniel’s voice trailed eerily through the air vent in her ceiling.

She looked up. “Yes?”

“Pinch them for me too,” he said, and she realized he heard every move she made.

“Are you in Sam’s room?”  Sam’s was right over hers for a north lake view.

“No, but I can still hear you.”

“Goodness, thanks for letting me know.  Night then, Daniel…” and he called softly back, “Good night, Lindsay.”

Quietly she put on her nightdress then whispered her prayer for no dreams just as she had since high school, and slid between the warm jersey sheets into the promise of white calm that held her mind safe.

A vision in light came before she slept.

A vision of an old man with long hair pulled back, a fathomless spirit that spun into a younger man with blonde hair pulled back.

A man with olive eyes.  No, an owl.

But she was calm and safe.

A squeal like a teapot going off in the dawn sat her straight up for a second.  Then she dropped onto her pillow and rolled on the bed toward the skunks in their wee bedroom corner by the windows.  If one wanted to live with skunks, she thought, they must be willing to get up at four twenty-four every morning.  That was precisely when her skunks decided to go to bed and began quibbling over which den they would sleep in.

Fern was screaming in wrath today.  Itty was on her side next to Fern, back against the wall, pushing with all her legs to get Fern off the white flannel sheets.  But it was Fern’s bed. I tty’s was the plush den closest to the sweet alfalfa-filled litter pan for a reason.

Lindsay grabbed Itty and went to the mudroom to let Garth and Susanna outside.  In the kitchen, she shook a dozen hulled sunflower seeds out of a canning jar for Itty.  “You’re being a witch this morning.  You do know Great Horned Owls eat skunks?”

Then Lindsay remembered the owl from her sleep, though an owl of a different kind.  She wasn’t supposed to dream if she prayed, so what was going on?

Itty munched seeds with tail high then followed Lindsay for more.  Instead, Lindsay made coffee, dumped lentils in a crockpot for soup, checked the dogs, started dishes and laundry.  She needed breakfast, the dogs and skunks needed fed.

Oh goodness, wake up brain, Daniel was here too.

“Woo-hoo,” a woman’s voice called cheerily from the mudroom.   No, oh no no no! Gooee.  All-encompassing, abominable Gooee.

Lindsay backed toward the cubbyhole door, wanting terribly to flee.  She could hide behind Maimee’s cottage until Gooee decided she was not here.

How did Gooee know she was here?

Lindsay had purposefully not spoken to her for fourteen months.  Truly, the woman was just too out there.  Just too– too– universal-minded. Lindsay was here and now.  Earth unbound. Gooee was always projecting her thoughts into Lindsay’s brain and goodness knows how she managed that, but it worked for her.  Lindsay wanted her privacy and for life to be normal.

“Woo-hoo.  Didn’t someone need beautiful white ironstone china from England?”

This cannot be happening.  Lindsay, uncombed and in her robe, cautiously rounded the corner to face a fresh vision of brown-eyed Gooee in red lip gloss.  The shawl and long, red batik dress spoke her entitlement in the world, and though the undesired guest only had opened the door, not the screen, Lindsay felt intruded upon.

Gooee was a classic seventies Earth mother knockout in a silky gray pageboy.  When she was twenty-two, Lindsay knew, she changed her name from Lois to Gwynevere, meaning ‘fair lady.’  These days she called herself Gooee.  In Gooee’s own words, “might as well get real, darling.”  She had actually dropped down to about two hundred and eighty pounds, Lindsay realized.  Another sixty pounds lost and they would be the same size.  Only Gooee would never have full breasts like her own.  Then Lindsay acknowledged she was being more the witch than Itty.  And that was because she definitely felt put upon at the moment, ironstone dishes or not.

“Hi, darling. I helped set up at a garage sale this morning and noticed these dishes, and just had to follow my instincts and buy them for you. A house-warming gift, my dear, to go with everything, so I know these will be perfect for whatever you needed.”

Gooee stepped inside, standing beside Lindsay, eight inches taller in her wedges. She laid the cardboard box in Lindsay’s arms.

“How did you know?” Lindsay asked, genuinely wondering though pleased with the dishes.

“We just know these things.”

Gooee was often too vague on really important answers. But always cheerful. Too loud, too crude. But brutally honest about herself and what everyone else could feel, if they only wanted to feel universal. ‘The Universe,’ was Gooee’s favorite phrase, given to saying it the way a universal joint salesman says ‘universal joint’ all the livelong day.

Gooee was a contradiction unto herself. In a nutshell, Gooee was as concise as she was long-winded. And the contradictory question on the tip of Lindsay’s tongue, but she was too polite to ask. ‘Was Gooee crazy or the sanest person on the planet?’

“Well, dear, you take those dishes inside, and I’m going to go to my bus for breakfast fruits. We can nibble while we get caught up.” And she went outside.

Lindsay knew to expect the orange bowl of organic fruits with dreadful lemon-honey drizzle. Sam made awful faces. Daniel washed off the drizzle, saying students in Gooee’s high school literature class wouldn’t eat any so Lindsay ended up with theirs.

She did love the ironstone. She peeked around the box, going up the two stairs into the kitchen.

“Hey, did I hear Gooee?” Daniel asked tiredly, scratching at his beard as he walked into the kitchen from the other side.

Lindsay got an electric shock from alarm. Yes! You did. No time to say it out loud.

She practically dropped the box on the pink enamel table beside them and held her arm out, pushing against his chest.

Daniel’s astonished blue eyes registered.

Wildly, Lindsay looked over her shoulder, shoving him.

“Gooee?!” He wheezed, wheeling for the stairs.

Lindsay pushed against his back to propel him. “Go go man!” she hissed loudly. “Go- Go- Go- Go- Go!!!” She heard every step of his escape to preserve their privacy.

Gooee let herself back in, Newfs with her. “I met the puppies.”

“They’ve been here four days today,” Lindsay said calmly.

“And where is he?” The baiting question. Gooee sounded like someone’s aunt about to pinch a cheek. “I see his truck outside.”

Lindsay realized they had been caught. “Sam is using Daniel’s truck.” She never never lied. But she was lying now. “We sold our old truck.” That was true.

Gooee turned from the kitchen to the living room, depositing the plastic bowl on the table without looking, instead her entranced gaze on the cottage. “This is nice. Oh, oh, so nice. I like it. I really like it.” She wandered around the living room like she could buy the place herself. “Oh, but I should be quieter. Sam must be sleeping.” She pointed at the bedroom through the French doors. “Is that your master bedroom?” she whispered.

The doors were open. Empty bed unmade. Itty and Fern were staring them down, standing on the rug belligerently pointing their tails at the ceiling that hid Daniel.

“A face off with skunks,” Gooee whispered. “Universal moment.” She tilted her pretty gray head to the far left, studying them. “They’re very square, aren’t they?”

“When they’re planning to stomp and spray you.” Lindsay warily lifted her gaze to the ceiling for half a second, knowing Daniel could hear everything.

“Sam’s not in bed,” Gooee said slowly. “I was afraid I would wake him.”

“Sam’s gone fishing. Very early.” Lindsay wanted to throw herself around the living room like Ron Conrad in Pants on Fire.

Lies. Dishonesty, rudeness, ingratitude, ungracious hospitality. Oh for goodness sake, she thought, what karma was going to happen to her for this?

Gooee took a seat on the edge of the taupe sofa. “I knew you were in here somewhere. I just kept following the road, and around and around it wound until there was your car. I didn’t know if it was this house or that darling yellow one, but I noticed Daniel’s truck and said, there it is, and Daniel is there already so I won’t be waking them. But you always did get up with the skunks.” Gooee laughed at her cute word play on skunks instead of birds or chickens.

Never mind that, Lindsay thought. She remembered Gooee had her telephone number a few days ago. “How did you know we moved to Koontz Lake?”

“I went by your house yesterday, the signs were out and it was void of furnishings.”

“And you knew we moved over here to Koontz Lake?”

“We just know these things.” And Lindsay wished she would stop saying that. It was never an answer. Definitely not.

“The good thing is now you’re even closer to me.”

“Oh, okay then.” That made her so much more composed.

“I lost your other phone number,” Gooee continued, and Lindsay thought that she had actually torn Gooee’s phone number and address out of her book. Goodness, she almost said that one aloud. She had to stop thinking like this. Gooee could distinctly hear her thoughts, that she knew.

“But now you have a new number,” Gooee said.

No chance in the whole wide universe.

“Your real estate agent was very helpful,” Gooee said.

And Lindsay despaired. Gooee didn’t need the new number, and she certainly didn’t need this address. Say something nice now. “Thank you so much for the pretty dishes. I was hoping to get more, just last night.”

“And here they are darling lady.”

“Yes, and here they are. You found the perfect ones. Really, I love white ironstone.”

“Just following my instincts, darling, and keeping up with my friends, since it’s been so long… I’ve missed you terribly…. Ralph Waldo Emerson.” Gooee turned her head to the right, slightly raised her chin, poised. “Delicious is a just and firm encounter of two, in a thought, in a feeling.

“How beautiful, on their approach to this beating heart, the steps and forms of the gifted and the true! The moment we indulge our affections, the earth is metamorphosed: there is no winter and no night: all tragedies, all ennuis vanish, – all duties even; nothing fills the proceeding eternity but the forms all radiant of beloved persons.

Please stop, Lindsay begged with her thoughts but Gooee wound on, “Let the soul be assured that somewhere in the universe it should rejoin its friend, and it would be content and cheerful alone for a thousand years.”

Lindsay decided this must be the crazy lady. Maimee had a premonition and here she was, all ready to torment and tribulate Lindsay. Maimee’s wish for revenge was Gooee.

“But, darling,” Gooee said, now gazing over Lindsay’s face.  “Let’s not wait to see one another during this lifetime, we only have so long and then we’re gone, what a waste, there may be a thousand years to be apart later.”

Gooee looked like she was taking a deep breath, to see her through the next paragraph, or three, and she rushed on.  “I know I don’t have a stop button on my mouth, lucky for everyone concerned that I don’t have a rewind and play either.  We’re all better off most of the time if we just don’t remember what comes out of me.  But I want you to know that whatever I have done to offend you, I am truly sorry and wish to be forgiven because I really like you.  I love you.  You are such a wonderful person to talk to and you always listen and try to understand everyone and you are so beautiful in your heart, I miss being around someone like you. Because there aren’t too many people like you, Lindsay dear, there really aren’t.  Ralph Waldo Emerson.  ‘When a man becomes dear to me I have touched the goal of fortune.’”

Lindsay blinked once and put her hands over her face.  Deeply remorseful, that’s what she was now.  This – this– dear dear woman.

Goodness, this was what Lindsay loved about her.  Gooee would always take the chance and open her beautiful heart to people.  Lindsay knew that she had never been as open as Gooee.  She had never in her life said anything so beautiful to anyone as Gooee just said to her.

“Oh, darling, darling, don’t cry, my apology was to make you glad,” Gooee said in singsong.  “Don’t hide your face.”

“A-shamed,” Lindsay managed, shaking her head.  “Just ashamed.”

“Why ashamed?” Gooee coaxed softly.

She uncovered her face.  “I never said anything or called for months.  I just disappeared.” Lindsay couldn’t tell her why, as some things were better left unsaid, mind reader or not.

“Well, you have a chance to do it all over again.  Right now.”

Lindsay was regaining her composure.  And wondering, just a little bit, why this was a good thing, her getting to do it over.  She met Gooee at a pottery class and, basically, was adopted by her.  But Gooee had such a precious heart that much was so apparent, regardless of her abominable presence and all-encompassing intellect.  People always wished her to go away.  But Gooee only desired to be genuine for their benefit.

Lindsay would try this friendship again.  There just were times Lindsay would have to speak up.

“There’s an upstairs too,” Gooee said, standing. “I want to see.”

Now Lindsay had to speak up.  “There’s no time for me to show you.”

“Oh?  Ohhh.”  She sounded a only little defeated.  “Okay, you have somewhere to go,” and Lindsay agreed, saying, “Yes yes, I still have to shower and dress.”

Gooee started for the kitchen.  “Where are the stairs?  Couldn’t I just take a little self-tour while you get ready?” and Lindsay said, “No-no,” like she was speaking to a toddler.

“Oh.” Gooee paused, now sounding deflated, confused and hurt.

Lindsay decided if they were starting over then she had to tell the truth.  Only some of it.  “Sam is in the hospital.”

“Oh, finally you tell me–”

“What? Finally?”

“We just know these things.”

“Oh, really, Gooee–”

“But if Sam’s in the hospital–” she paused, turning slowly to the bedroom where they could see the silver-blue extended cab pickup parked outside the white fence.  She pointed questioningly.

Goodness, just splendid.  She never could lie.  “Sam is borrowing Daniel’s truck.”  How far was she willing to take this?  Gooee would definitely be back.  She talked to everyone.  And truly, she did not have a censor device between her brain and mouth.  “Okay. Daniel is upstairs,” Lindsay admitted.  “He slept over so we can get back to the hospital early.  He was very tired after midnights.”

“Well I knew that all the time, dear, I was just wondering how long it was going to take for you to tell me.  And I assure you no one will be told so you don’t need to worry yourself over that.  Just between you, me and the lamppost up there, so far, so good.”

Sure, Lindsay thought.

“I’m coming down now,” Daniel called through the vent, true defeat in his tone being he was on the losing team this morning.

“Daniel, dear, I hope you have your clothes on,” Gooee called up the vent.

“He slept upstairs with his clothes,” Lindsay said.

“Oh, I know.”  Gooee laughed.  “I’m just tormenting him.”

“My goodness, Gooee,” she said, “I don’t know how much torment I can take.”  Lindsay went into the kitchen and scooped some of the honey-lemon drizzled fruit for Daniel into one of her own bowls.  “I’ll keep a little fruit. But thank you for bringing all this over.  It’s just that we have to get back to the hospital right away.  Sam may be released.  If not, then I want to be with him.”

“I understand fully, dear, and I’m going to go now but I’ll be back very soon to help you out and we can catch up then.”  Gooee grabbed Daniel by the hand, swinging their arms flirtatiously.  “Daniel is a good friend for you and Sam, I know that, so don’t mind my harassing.”  She hugged Daniel then Lindsay and opened the door to the mudroom.

“Oh, Lindsay,” she said, “I noticed a business for rent on the corner when I turned off the highway several times trying to find you.  And I kept saying to myself, over and over as I passed, ‘Lindsay Davinson is so creative, she could really do something universal with that place.’”

Gooee took off in her seventies white Volkswagen bus with black-and-white Woodstock scenes along both sides.  The image of a newspaper page blowing past the window at six in the morning if Lindsay didn’t know what she was seeing.

Lindsay was scowling for ten minutes after Gooee left.  She ate breakfast, avoiding the fruit.  She grunted agreement with Daniel about the weather and Garth’s soft coat until Daniel broached the Gooee subject that had Lindsay so riled.

“She’s alright, really,” he said.

“Daniel, you never liked her.”

“I never said I didn’t like Gooee.”  Daniel was at the sink rinsing the fruit.  “I don’t like sour drizzle, hey some things a person has to avoid. But Gooee, she’s got a big heart.”

“And mouth.”

“And mouth.  Unfortunately, she will mention me being here to someone she shouldn’t say anything to.  Consequently, we won’t be happy.  But we would do it again if we needed to.  Since we did nothing wrong, Lindsay.”

“Nothing.”

“We do our best to always be able to say we did nothing wrong.  We’re okay.  And Gooee will be Gooee.”

Lindsay was done thinking about Gooee.  She took a shower and Daniel went next.

Lindsay dressed in her flax-colored rustic cardigan and the black denim skirt, didn’t even put on socks with her mules.  She grabbed the Newfer-scooper, an obvious chore, and the leaf rake.  Raking dead grass from what Sam called their postage stamp lawn was the most mindless, therapeutic activity she knew.  She needed mindless.

She had dodged Gooee for fourteen months and now she was back.  Okay, Lindsay would live with that.  She could see all the admirable traits of Gooee, or Gwynevere or Lois.  Or Gougou, that legendary sea witch from Miramichi Bay.  Whoever she was in reality.

She knew she was at this place to build a new life, not leave behind her old life.

Grass sprouts rifled her senses.  Freshly mown lawn.  Rolling on spring grass with Sam.  Piling grass over their giggling girls.  When they were so newly married everything hurt, though it shouldn’t have.  Now she was so extensively married, and everything still hurt.  But she didn’t want to lose him by him dying.

A new life before he died.  That was why they were here.  Lindsay had decided on the tiny village of Koontz Lake because her husband was never planning to leave his crane job, even with two hundred and thirty-one days left.  Otherwise, they might be somewhere truly scenic.

Koontz Lake. Not so scenic.

One of those northern-like villages in the middle of everywhere such as television paradigms.  Almost no one lived here.  Just people passing through on their way to the other place, passing through as they whiled away the weekend, passing through after staying the summer.  A place where nothing changed as everything around you modified.  They needed a place where nothing would change while they went through the greatest adjustment of their middle-aged lives.

She decided to come here because the town had a lake along the east.  A lake felt necessary for their life change.  They could pretend they were retired and seventy instead of Sam barely making fifty.

They always wanted a pontoon and water-faring Newfoundland.  Now they had two Newfs, the cottage she loved, and the lake.  She wanted to get the pontoon now, so Sam could go out and fish.

“I need a pontoon,” she murmured as she raked more slowly, the edge off her stress.

Gooee, the name meant stress for her.  A pontoon meant less stress.  Sam could work, then sit out there and fish.  And be with her, of course.

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Lindsay opened the mudroom door for Garth and Susanna to thunder outside on their second morning excursion, then she lifted the chest freezer lid to pile in breakfast leftovers.

An ungodly scream from the yard made her bash her head inside the freezer.

The scream fizzled to frail screeching as Lindsay ran, tangling in her swooping skirt and baker apron strings to trip around the corner and face the spy.

The dogs hadn’t even barked but the elderly lady standing in the street outside the front gate was waving her long arms at them. “That’s it! Thought I saw bears over here yesterday!! But they’re dogs!! Huge dogs!!”

Lindsay faced the extreme woman, tall, thin, barely bent except so she could see where her feet were headed in their canvas summer shoes. She wore skinny Levis with a sweatshirt tucked in, and wide man’s belt holding the jeans on her hipbones. Her grassroots hair did a wild reversal. Pale yellow roots and a gray moppet top. Worse for Lindsay, whose funny bone was tickled by the scolding, the woman’s hair sprang out in all directions as she regarded the benevolent Newfie faces with no-nonsense hostility.

“What did you doooo?!?!” she hollered at Lindsay with a courageous frail voice. Her eyes agitated, vibrating blue stars like she expected an answer. “Did you actually search the world over for the greatest dogs you could find!?!! To bring them here?!! And tribulate me?!”

“I’m so sorry they startled you.”

Lindsay herded the dogs back from the fence where they huddled only ten yards from where the woman seemed to have been clearing leaves from a still barren flower garden. Lindsay could understand why the woman was frightened. Garth’s head came right over the fence so he could pant at her, he was that tall. “They’re harmless, really,” she said when they were in less startling proximity.

“I have a cat!” the woman exclaimed, body stiffening, narrowing her eyes at the Newfs. “If those dogs eat my cat I will eat those dogs!”

Lindsay was sure she would. “It would serve them right. Eating a poor cat.” Please, do not be my new neighbor, she thought.

“They’d better not!” the woman scolded. She turned and crossed the few steps into the neighboring yard.

“They won’t.” Lindsay called to her back. “I assure you, they love cats.” But she could only hope since they loved her pet skunks, very cat-like in size.

“I didn’t get to ninety-two knowing nothin’. And my name is Maimee by the way,” the woman hurled viciously over her shoulder as she headed toward her skinny yellow cottage. “M-a-i-m-e-e. Storganaff. S-t-o-r-g-a-n-a-f-f. Two e’s. Two f’s.”

Newfoundlands in fiction, Garth and Susanna

Lindsay shook back incredulous tears and gurgled down a rude, imminent expulsion of laughter. “My great-aunt’s name was Mamie,” she called, loud enough to be heard by ninety-two-year-old ears. “Mamie, with an i-e.”

The woman surprised her by wheeling back to the fence. She banged the hood of the topaz Buick classic parked south of Lindsay’s car. A scrawly gray cat jumped skyward and bounded off. “What was your great-aunt’s last name,” Maimee demanded.

“Well, goodness, it was actually Vye, her maiden name. And she married a man named Sprague Ross. Mamie Ross.”

“I’ve known a lot of Mamies in my time. But I don’t know her.” Maimee looked her square in the eye. “She dead now?”

“Yes, and so is my grandmother. Her sister.” And all the other sisters and daughters and aunts, Lindsay thought, realizing she was forty-four. Death was bound to happen to some people, but apparently not to this woman anytime soon.

“You have a lot more paternal women relation. More than the maternal ones who are gone,” she said, which was so certainly the truth that Lindsay just blinked at her. “Now, I have to go in for my heart pill. After that spell,” Maimee scolded, “I can’t wait any longer.” She turned back to her cottage, weaving through springtime skeletons of shrubbery. “When Stella and Sybil hear about this! Oh my god,” she grumbled. “Lucky me, come home to this. Should have stayed in my stifling trailer in Florida.”

She stopped and headed back a few feet, shaking a knobby finger at Lindsay. “But I had to tell you about the business on the corner right away. Just don’t stare at me like I’m crazy. I assure you that your dismay is much less than mine. Remember the business, that one on Kanney and the highway. I’m here early in order to tell you it’s closed down.”

“Yes, yes, I noticed.” But she was more concerned over Maimee’s heart. And Lindsay wanted to dissuade their new neighbor from hating her dogs. “You can tell your friends,” she called hopefully, “that the male weighs all of one hundred and forty pounds, the female almost as much. Quite a shock you had then, wasn’t it?”

Maimee spun around from amazement and malicious laughter cragged grin lines on her waxy, tan face. “Oh hell! Weigh a lot more than me! I will have fun with that tidbit!” And she was off.

Lindsay’s entire system was reeling from the exchange. Unbelievable. Maimee was like Haidee when her daughter went through rehab the third time.

Goodness, she could only imagine this summer with the cantankerous spy next door. The cell phone rang from the pocket of her baker’s apron. She plopped down on the side of the deck, deciding to plant some of the tall blue campanula and white foxglove into the fresh spring earth like she had at home. She could bring back the still-dormant transplants today after Sam came home from work.

Garth leaned against her side, breathing heavy. Newfs preferred lounging on ice piles in February over breezy March mornings. She wondered how amused they were with Maimee, their neighborhood Spy.

“Garth, don’t mess with her cat, she means it,” she told him sternly. He lapped at his nose and rolled his small brown eyes up at her innocently, then to her pocket where the phone buzzed a sixth time, and she finally answered.

“Mrs. Davinson, this is Mr. Burt Marshall,” said an earnestly polite voice. “I’m from Plymouth. I understand you are interested in purchasing my property.”

Lindsay looked back at the cottage. She and Sam had made a down payment to the owners from Culver. The land contract was signed. “I don’t understand?”

“On Highway 23 and Kanney.”

“The antique mall complex.”

“It’s not an antique mall any longer, but you can make it whatever you like when you buy.”

“But I– where did you get the idea I want to buy the property from you?”

“You won’t be able to buy it from anyone else.”

“I realize that, Mr. Marshall.” Breathe out. She stopped talking, forcing him to explain or just hang up. She had learned to disengage through Haidee’s rehab program. Breathe in. And out.

“I just received a call though I don’t care to say who,” he said, “but they heard at Koontz Lake Realty that you were asking around about the price.”

“I assure you, I wasn’t the person asking, Mr. Marshall. But, I will admit I am interested in information now.” She wasn’t about to admit that calling him was the very next thing on her to-do list.

“You would not want to wait to contact me if you knew how many people have telephoned to lease or buy the place.”

“My husband and I have a philosophy that if something is meant for us, it will be there no matter what.” Not what she believed, but Sam did. “But please, tell me whatever I would want to know.”

The problem was not the contracted lease-purchase option, giving the buyer three years to rent then take a loan for a balloon payment. Fine. The problem was Mr. Marshall wanted two hundred and fifteen thousand dollars. Not an option. Who was encouraging him to sell for such a price on a highway in Koontz Lake?

But then again. She swooped back to the manic side, deciding she needed to find the way in.

“When would you like to meet me?” he asked. “You will see how well the inside will work for any business you could think to begin.”

She would walk over. “Mr. Marshall, could you be there in half an hour?” And when he said he would arrive sooner, she hurried the Newfs inside, tossed her apron after them and headed up the road.

What was she thinking? Really?

The price was all wrong. Lindsay dug through her perennial bed in Crown Point, mentally reviewing the buildings, the office in back, the pretty cottage. Central air, fans, washrooms. Wide doors, flat entry, no need for handicap access. First business from the north, right across from the restaurant.

She sat on the cold new grass to pull the now grubby theme book out of her jacket pocket and calculated again, shaking her head for the tenth time.

That was where Daniel found her, by the enormously square, white California Craftsman bungalow, not having a clue in the world how she would pull this off when facing an overhead of thirty-nine hundred dollars a month, rapidly estimated of course, which included a much needed advertising budget. She wasn’t willing to pencil in other expenses yet.

She watched Daniel cross the lawn, his limp hardly noticeable from the long ago broken left foot repaired with a pin implant. His hair shone rich mahogany with the late afternoon sun. He arranged himself next to her on the grass and gazed into her face.

“Hey, hi. What are you figuring now?”

“I looked at the complex a few hours ago. The man wants two hundred and fifteen thousand.”

He frowned. “Hey, does he have an agent to talk sense into him?”

“He has an appraisal from several years ago.”

“Based on a business with rents, or the property alone?”

“He says it’s the property alone, but I think it’s considering rental income. And there are none now, it’s closed and papered. His loss.”

Daniel nodded. “Even if there was income, you need high customer traffic to warrant that price. Not some village highway.”

“And the economy–”

“The drop in property values the last few years–”

“And there are less than four thousand square feet,” she told him.

“Really? Also, I was mistaken about auctions unless the back yard is raised–”

“That would cost. Goodness.” She wound down dismally.

Daniel was silent for a few minutes. “Tell me, what does this mean to you?”

“My new life.” No question.

He tried to read her face and she unwillingly smiled just from the intimacy. “Your new life… how?”

“Daniel, I have to get ready, you know.” She couldn’t even pretend she would be with Daniel when Sam passed on. That would be wrong.

“You have time,” he said, not looking to their future either. “Hey, focus on Sam now.”

“We’re not ready.”

“No one is ever ready, Lindsay, even when they don’t know…” He spoke from experience, she knew. His first wife died in an auto accident when he was twenty-two.

But she could tell Daniel didn’t understand what she meant about their finances. “We’re not okay, not ready with finances.”

“Hey, Sam thinks you are,” he said gently, and she shook her head seriously. “But Lindsay, his life insurance. . . ”

“Living off the income then paying taxes amounts to nine hundred dollars a month in reality. I’m figuring outlandishly high.”

“That’s it?”

“Spending a life insurance premium is ridiculous. I have to go by the interest income. At my age, I need to be preparing for serious retirement, especially since I’m going to be a widow. Sam and I haven’t been able to hang on to our investments, Daniel. You know, everything kept tearing it up. The rehab program– three times. Always LMC with Sam out of a job for months, year after year.

“Sam laid off before Haidee was born C-section and no insurance,” Daniel reminded her.

“Natalie’s surgeries with no insurance,” she said, remembering her middle daughter’s compound fractured leg, but more vividly five-year-old Haidee’s gleeful expression as she pushed her sister off the tree fort and steady-handed Daniel calling the ambulance.

“There are real reasons for you two to not be ready. I only had a couple years on him and that made all the difference for my seniority and retirement.”

“And you didn’t have three daughters,” she mentioned.

“Hey, no, I didn’t. That’s a lot right there.”

“This was the time for us to get ready now – Sam and I – but Sam is leaving. I have to do this on my own.”

She wouldn’t admit that, if Sam weren’t dying, she would still be facing financial instability and preparing for retirement on her own. She had known for some time she needed to be on her own. But now she didn’t have a decision to make when it came to leaving Sam and she was more concerned about her heart than her finances.

She didn’t have right to speak to Daniel about how she felt about him or what she and Daniel might consider after Sam was gone. She could only go on assumptions based on his actions after he knew Sam’s health situation.

For her, their two kisses all those years ago held enough insinuation for a lifetime, though maybe not for him.

Maybe he really didn’t know how she felt about him. The few times he reached out to her, she had said she couldn’t. Thousands of other moments when she felt the same need, but didn’t give him a clue. She would have thought he knew, but now he brought Margaret around. Now?

“Lindsay,” Daniel said, “you don’t have to do it all right now.”

No, no, she knew she did, no matter what the situation. She watched Daniel lean his freckled face up to the nearly setting sun, realized the cold had seeped into her hips and back. She was too old for pining after a man. Either it was, or it was not. Period.

“It takes years to develop a business,” she said, pulling up to her knees to arrange plants in the cardboard box. “That business has customers expecting to shop, especially May through summer. To remain viable, it has to be reopened before word is out that it closed.

“You know, Daniel, when I saw that closed sign I felt something click. Like an answer I wasn’t even looking for magically appeared. Like a knowing, really deep.” She felt there was more to this business than cash flow, but couldn’t even explain to herself. Compelled was her word, urgently compelled.

Daniel was looking at her. “Like someone knowing when they found real love?”

Lindsay ducked to conceal a tingeing blush. “I suppose.”

But no, she thought, no, the manic planning since she noticed the closed complex was not even close to how alive she felt when thirty-one-year-old Daniel Gordon Pumeroy walked into the restaurant to meet her. Unfortunately, that was eight months after she married Sam.

Daniel had been away for almost two years when she and Sam met and married. The Army during the aftermath of Vietnam. He was able to rehire at LMC where he was reunited with Sam through the Local Operating Engineers 597 Union. Lindsay was pregnant with Melanie Vye. Though she could hardly fathom how she got pregnant within two months of marriage since sex was practically nonexistent. In fact, there was one time only and not even on their honeymoon. But their ‘miracle’ baby was due in three months. She was not open for complications or hurting Sam, though she had been forever grateful Daniel was in their lives.

She wanted to ask to hold his hand now, but didn’t. “What are you doing over here anyway,” she asked, digging the last foxglove, which was not as dormant as she had imagined. “How did you know I was going to be here?”

“I didn’t. I’m on my way down to the auction at Niehers in Lowell.” And Lindsay thought, Margaret again. “I stopped here on the way, just to see that your real estate signs were all in place, hey, things like that. I’m going to borrow the welding torch.” Daniel had a key to Sam’s three-car garage and workshop. Sharing that man-space made them closer than brothers, Lindsay reasoned.

“Thanks for checking. You’re always so good to us,” she told him. “Sam came home from work two hours early to fish, already talking about needing a pontoon, believe that! So I was free to drive over for flowers.”

“Will you be digging long?”

“Nope. Almost done.” She checked her terse tone but all the spring green and sunset gold just as soon be mud. What was he doing with a springtime romance now, and when Sam was not well? Lindsay packed wadded newspaper around the campanula and foxglove roots to soak before she left, careful not to break the two-inch green growth ready for April showers. “Then Margaret is in the truck?” she asked, as distractedly as she could pretend.

Daniel reached over and patted her on the shoulder like she was a big old dog. “No, hey… no, Margaret isn’t in the truck. She needs her truck and trailer at the auction.”

Wrong answer, Danny, Lindsay thought. She felt positively juvenile. She grinned at him, trying to add about thirty years to her maturity level. “Well, I’m headed home to brainstorm.”

Ten minutes later, she parked the Crown Victoria on Pettibone Street on the way out of Crown Point. She took a deep breath for control but lost, leaning her forehead on the steering wheel and sobbing, never so overwhelmed in her life, never so alone, so afraid of dying of a broken heart again. Daniel being married, now that, that she could take only once a lifetime.

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One man proposed that though he does believe in reincarnation, all this talk of soul mates gives him concern that the divorce rate will rise.  He thinks people will be scrambling to get to the one person they believe is only suited for them.  Therefore, he did not want to allow this reincarnation love story on his book list.  My opinion?  Personal fears he may be dealing with for now.  It’s all right.

I think that in writing reincarnation fiction, and giving thought to this for years, I am guessing the chance of getting with your soul mate is one in a hundred.  Why so easy?  Well, to my way of thinking, we seldom get out of our soul group.  And I think our soul mate or soul twin preference is within that soul group. 

A soul group is like a task force to me.  Everyone has their job to accomplish and all are needed to pull it off.  Some do not want to get to work.  Creating more challenges for the others.  But there is love.  There is intimacy that is not understood but appreciated.

Divorce being a part of finding one’s soul mate is unfortunate.  But I will personally stay clear of that arena.  Except to say that people do have reasons to stay together, even when they know they are not with their soul mate.  People also have reason not to pair with their soul mate, especially if that soul mate is dealing with character and moral challenges in a lifetime.

What I am saying.  Love is not enough.

What I am also saying.  We can love more than one person, differently but genuine, just the same.

A Breath Floats By proves that deep love.  Speaks of the spiritual energy we, as a whole, are responsible to maintain for this world and those within.

Do divorce being the answer to getting with one’s soul mate?  Not unless everything falls in place with love.  Then love is enough.

Essa Adams is author of A Breath Floats By and develops life path guidance charts.

Reincarnation poem and two excerpts from reincarnation book…..

The Twilight

James Russell Lowell, 1819 – 1891

Sometimes a breath floats by me

An odor from Dreamland sent,

Which makes the ghost seem nigh me

Of a something that came and went,

Of a life lived somewhere, I know not

In what diviner sphere.

A something too vague, could I name it,

For others to know:

As though I had lived it and dreamed it,

As though I had acted and schemed it

Long ago…..

Prologue – A Reincarnation Characterization

From Jesus’ time to the Druid universities of Britain,

from an Ojibwe village near Lake Superior and lifetimes between.

One soul group emerges in the Midwest with differences to resolve.

Heartbreaks to attend.

Another dimension or another era?  The Circle of Time?

What is time but an illusion? And life, the illusion for the soul.

I often see all of us, the women, standing in the tunnels waiting to be helped into the boats,” said Heather Laurel, glancing at Clara Rose.  “You were there, love.”

“I don’t remember,” said Clara Rose.

“You don’t want to remember,” Maimee stated.

“We were a team,” Sam said.

“Hey, not actually meant to be with one another, as couples?” Daniel pondered.

“Will anyone ever get it?”  Thoroughly exasperated, Gooee turned away.

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Sometimes a breath floats by me… An odor from Dreamland sent… Goodness! Certain the front door slammed, she bolted off the bed landing in front of the French doors to the living room. Nothing, except that inexplicable cluster of light bubbles.

She crouched low and hurried to the window, screening her near nudity with the white lace sheers as she ducked behind the towering wardrobe. No one was in the yard.

She cringed from the icy fear in her spine, waiting.

Had they even gone?

Then a breath… almost a breath floated by.

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A life lived somewhere… As though I had lived it and dreamed it… Lindsay marched back into the living room to face a growing wall of light bubbles hovering in golden sunrays. They had to go. She opened her mouth–

A flash of a huge cast iron pot slammed her. A hissing fire-red vessel of water. Heart hammering, backing out too terrified to blink, her hip hit the doorframe. Yelling from the fires. Her own screaming? Fighting futilely at bruising hands hauling her toward a net. Screaming at the angry crowd intent on dipping her. She bit cloth and arm. Her gums ripped. Emptiness, floating. The lights carried her. A breath on a night wind.

Sobbing, she fell to her knees on the hardwood floor. The golden lights in her living room came closer.  Lindsay bowed her head.

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What if you realize you married your best friend’s soul mate?

If your sacred work petrifies you with glimpses of tortured deaths in past lives?

What becomes of your soul group if you do not keep your promise this lifetime?

Lindsay Davinson’s husband, Sam, has months to live. While she works to secure her family and career, she realizes one woman who supports her is vying for Sam’s heart.  Through it all, Lindsay becomes aware that her soul group needs her more than she needs them, especially Daniel.

Lindsay, Heather Laurel and Gooee deal with divorce, security, forgiveness, faith and death by using a highly unconventional interpretation.  However, their greatest challenge is the raw honesty required in facing the complexity of their love affairs.

An eternal romance novel.   Within  this timely, gentle love story of lifetimes anew in the Great Lakes Region, a swirling spiritually-charged world is exposed.

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